I’m stuck.
Suspended.
Dangling a foot above what comes next.
The view between my feet is chaotic and static.
Most of the swirling colors look dark and scary.
Not enough happy colors to make me feel ready to jump.
No rafts. No lifeboats.
No guarantees.
What if I don’t want to jump?
What if I chose to dangle?
Well, that won’t work.
I know.
I know some joker will come along and just for giggles he’ll cut me loose.
Then I’ll fall.
I’ll fall and slip like slime into the troughs he dug with his own stick.
I’ll get sucked along, bobbing, rolling, and gasping for air.
As usual.
Suspended.
Dangling a foot above what comes next.
The view between my feet is chaotic and static.
Most of the swirling colors look dark and scary.
Not enough happy colors to make me feel ready to jump.
No rafts. No lifeboats.
No guarantees.
What if I don’t want to jump?
What if I chose to dangle?
Well, that won’t work.
I know.
I know some joker will come along and just for giggles he’ll cut me loose.
Then I’ll fall.
I’ll fall and slip like slime into the troughs he dug with his own stick.
I’ll get sucked along, bobbing, rolling, and gasping for air.
As usual.
 He's back, he's back! And we couldn't be Happier!! Season Premier was perfectly BRILLIANT in every way!  GO 49er's!!!!   | Normally, by this page of the calendar, I have self-analyzed and readjusted internally, and am armed with renewed hope and strategies for the new year. This year is different. As far as productivity and creativity go, I completely lost the month of December to a bizarre turn of health. How do you recover an entire month?!! You don't. Aaaarrggghhh!!! And I hate being so weakened. Spiritually AND physically. Some pretty significant challenges loom before me. Like millions of other Americans, I start this new year without a job. Also like many of them, I am older - in my fifties. My technological skill sets are out of date. Technology is a mixed blessing depending on your current position. To make things easier in the working world, we've become a fill-in-the-blank, multiple choice society when it comes to job applications. Online applications, by method, are designed to pick out tag words and determine where you fit based on your responses selected for each question. The problem is, in our efforts to SORT and DEFINE us as a whole, many good and valuable people are being SORTED and DEFINED out of all possibilities. "Please answer all questions honestly. Using the scroll-up, scroll-down button, select the option that best describes you; A, B, C, or D." Ok, but what if NONE of them are a fit? Or are even close? Applications will not be accepted unless complete. So you chose an answer that is not an accurate representation of who you are. There goes honesty out the window. To further identify you, some companies have included some interesting additions to their application. One online application I spent hours filling out and submitting - for a position I was highly qualified, and perfect, for - had a twelve page PERSONALITY test. Twelve pages! Apparently I have no personality because I couldn't even get an interview! A major component of job procurement, will be finding a solution that allows me to create a successful balance between earning an income while working to manifest my lifelong dream and passion. Good luck to me. Good luck to All of Us! In the meantime, I missed two 49ers games while I was down. They play the Green Bay Packers on Sunday. What a game this will be! It's quite probable this game will break the NFL record for playing in the coldest weather conditions. Expected hi for the is -5 degrees, with a wind chill factor of -51 degrees! DAMN THAT'S COOOOLD!!!! Yeah, I think the weather will be a key factor in this game and I'm NOT missing this one!!!  |